About damn time!

Finally some good news.

long long time ago in a galaxy

So it’s bee a while since I’ve sat down, and really really gotten things out here. It has been kind of up and down for me. Finding boundaries, using them, losing them, and making mistakes that I must forgive myself for. Every day is a new challenge wherein I feel as if I have forgotten myself, how to forgive myself, and that its ok to make mistakes. I make a lot of mistakes. I make mistakes on purpose sometimes. I guess that means doing things I know I shouldn’t.

I haven’t been sleeping well. Grasping for straws. Not wanting to sit with my alone-ness or my pain. Am thinking that I should personify or what’s the word? Create physical representations of these amorphous feelings so that I can actually sit with them. Perhaps discuss things with them. Wait for answers from them. Am supposed to check out a book. Maybe I’ll head to the local bookshop and see if they have it

A drive sounds good anyway.

Am Anfang schuf Gott Himmel und Erde.
Und die Erde war wüst und leer,
Und es war finster auf der Tiefe
Und der Geist Gottes schwebte auf dem Wasser.
Und Gott sprach:
“Es werde Licht.”
Und es ward Licht.
Und Gott sah, daß das Licht gut war
Da schied Gott das Licht von der Finsternis

Und nannte das Licht Tag, und die Finsternis Nacht.

sense

sometimes song lyrics are more clear than my actual thoughts. This one in particular today

d’awwww

http://xkcd.com/162/

movers and shakers

n., pl. movers and shakers.

A person who wields power and influence in a particular activity or field, as in He’s one of the movers and shakers in the art world. At first the two nouns referred specifically to God, alluding to the belief that a divine force was responsible for all events. The current usage refers only to human beings. [Second half of 1800s]

This is undeniably exhausting.

I have found a piece in routine. I’m grasping it. I like it. I think I need it. New art projects happening inside my head. I think good things will happen. I am hopeful.

soul selling on ebay

Trying to get rid of things that I don’t want AND make a profit before I move, I’ve found that selling things on ebay can be both lucrative and frustrating. I had some good experiences and some “ok” experiences. I just looked up information on a darth vader collectors carrying case from 1980.

This”prize possession” is from my monkle mike who donated this piece to my fanatical cause in high school….

Here’s what a website said….

If you’ve recently found one of these cases in your attic, and you’ve come to this page in hopes of finding out what it’s worth, turn back now because it’s not worth spit. In fact, if it’s possible for something to be worth less than spit, the Darth Vader Collector’s Case is that something. You see, every male child in America had one of these things. I think owning one was even mandated by law in some areas of West Virgina.

What impact does this strange but true fact have on the collectability of this item? Let’s just say that, in the eyes of most of today’s collectors, loose Darth Vader Collector’s Cases are like the Star Wars hobby equivalent of tribbles (yes, that’s a Star Trek reference)– they seem to reproduce and multiply until you’re literally drowning in the things. I have dealer friends who’ve taken them to collectibles shows and tried to give them away. And, honestly, I have at least five of the things lurking in my basement at this very moment. It’s almost scary.

Oh well I guess I tried. Meanwhile I looked on ebay – he’s right. they’re not selling.  Maybe my 1984 fisher price karaoke machine will do better

socks

I woke up yesterday, tripped over everything in my room and landed face first against the wall/laundry basket. Yes, this *is* comedy at casa de wireless monkey. None the less – I achieved the ultimate glory – four loads of laundry done and good dinner with good people. Hurrah! In any case, now I have socks.

the worst thing in the world

lactose intolerance and allergy to casein =

in over my head

I feel like all in all, things are really good. My ebay auctions have been selling. My paperbackswap swaps have been successful… Yesterday I got my work into chorewars, and found out about jott and created the ultimate mashable for myself. Been spending time with good people.  Lots of time spent with good people. Lots of time. Got to see a Vday 1({})  event – downloaded a lot of music. Enjoying Pandora.com

However, I feel completely unable to prioritize for some reason. I also feel completely unmotivated today. What motivates you?

smashed television

This one time in college, my friend Christian set about attempting to find a television which he could then toss off the third floor of our dorm building. I don’t recall if he ever actually found a tv to toss, but it spurned a discussion about the occasional need to break something. Later I found an article about a place somewhere in east Asia where you can rent a room to break plates and other glasses which would help reduce stress. I can’t for the life of me find this article right now. Sometimes I have the urge to destroy something… and sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t. Right now, would be a great time to see a great crash. By the way, No only can I do this, but I lose myself in the music, the moment also…